伟光给姐妹们的家书, VK Letter to His Sisters (12/09/2008)

姐姐:

妳最近好吗?身体健康吗?妳的家庭快乐吗?阿忠(编:阿忠是伟光的二哥) 有来看我,他和(对)我说妳怀孕了,真的恭喜妳。我在这里替妳祈佛,愿妳生个贵子聪明又善良,又很孝顺妳和姐夫。

妹妹:

妳好吗?出来作(做)工会习惯吗?辛苦吗?阿忠和(对)我说妳要过去新加坡作(做)工,是真的吗?几时?为什么妳要去那么远作(做)工?妳不怕吗? 那么谁照顾妳呢?住谁的家?作(做)什么工?妳为什么事情才走到那么远作(做)工?山打根不好吗?表姑和妈妈知道吗?妳不读书了吗?妳要想清楚。如果妳有 了未来的目标,如果需要读到书的知识和文凭,那么我鼓励妳在(再)求进步,不要放弃现在的一切。妳有想过吗,妳读书可以或者不可以(?)如果可以,我希望 妳求进步多努力。妳现在还年青(轻),为什么不在(再)读书?家庭又不需要钱,妳自己又不等钱用,在(再)说妳那么早出来作(做)工对妳将来有什么用?钱 给妳赚到了一点点钱,那时妳的人可能老了很多,思想很低,人(认)识的人又少,知识又少,对自己最大伤害就是将来的老公和妳现在的思想差不多,也是那么简 单,也是要受苦。那时可能也是要受家庭(的)苦,以(因)为妳的环境和认识的人就是那么简单。妳说对不对,妹妹?要想清清楚楚,知道吗?

阿忠和我说过,如果妳要读到大学或者在(再)上更高的知识,阿忠一样会支持妳的学会(费)。我相信大姐,表姑,妈妈,二哥和你半工半读一定读的 (得)到的。那时未来的妳一定会有更好的人生。在(再)加上妳有好的耶稣教,可以在(从)耶稣那里学到好的人格,善良羽(习)惯一定会有很多好的朋友。好 了,在这停笔了,珍重。

在只(之)(前)我写了几封信,妳们收到了吗?如果收到了为什么没回过信?妳们是怕我受到压力吗?如果是,请妳们放心,以(因)为我想通了。

姐姐:

我在这里替一个人但(担)心,而且但(担)心了很久。这个人本性是好的,但是他在他长大过程学坏了,而且很坏。他又不孝顺父母,又学到人玩(吸)毒 品,又小气,容易发脾气,又傲慢,粗鲁,吝啬,又不会想人家感受,以(因)为他很自私和其他等等。。。但这个人现在想改过所有一切的不好的羽(习)惯,不 好的恶行为。他真的有心改过。我用一个比喻说他改过的心有多大。比 喻一个人,在森林走过看到一棵水果树。他贪心拿来吃,结果中毒了,以(因)为水果树有毒。在这个人中毒时很后悔吃了毒果,这个人的后悔心的心是到第一真心 的心,对吗?姐姐,如果妳是知道这个人中毒了,同时妳又知道怎样医好他的毒,那么姐姐妳会不会医呢?说回刚才说的真心改过的人,他和我说他想改过,姐姐, 我给机会他改过,妳认为我的作(做)法是对的或者是错的呢?

妳心还没回答我这个问题时,我现(先)给你了解这个人,他现在有三十左右,没有家,没有车,没有钱,没有自由,没有老婆,没有儿女,没有朋友,没有多少件衣服,没有见识,没有学问,没有真(正)确的思想,没有出过外国见过间(世)面,没有妈妈的关心,没有爸爸的关心,没有兄弟姐妹的关心。这一个人就是什么都没有,但是他还有一个小小的希望这个人的希望,我下一封信和(对)妳说。这一个人我在(再)给妳了解。他长大过程时发生什么事,和什么人影响他一生,为什么他会到这样的地步,我也是下一封信和(对)妳说。

真的不好意思,我写到那么乱,以(前)我做什么事都不经过想,直接做,所以我今天会坐牢到这样的地步,所以我要反醒(省)自己的思量(想),希望你 们看我写的信,也思考我写的意思,和要和你们说什么只(之)(前)的信也是一样,如果你们不去思想,你们不会明白我写什么。:)

12/9/2008,光

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Sister:

How are you? Are you healthy? Is your family happy? Ah Zhong (Note : Ah Zhong is VK’s 2nd Brother) has been visiting me. I heard from him that you are pregnant, congratulations! I pray to Buddha on your behalf for your child to be an intelligent, kind and filial one.

Younger Sister:

How are you? Are you used to working now? Is working hard? Ah Zhong told me that you want to work in Singapore, is that true? When do you intend to do that? Why do you want to work so far [from home]? Aren’t you scared? Who will take care of you? Who will you stay with? What kind of work will you be doing? Why did you decide to work so far away? Is Sandakan not good? Do Aunt and Mother know? Aren’t you going to continue studying?

You have to consider carefully. If you have a goal for your future which requires both knowledge and certification, I urge you to continue studying, and not to give up on everything you have now. Have you really thought about whether you are capable of further studies? If you are, I hope you keep improving yourself and work hard. Why stop studying when you are still so young? Your family doesn’t need your money [to support them], you don’t need money too. What benefits are there in going to work? Yes, you might earn a little bit of money, but you will be old then, and you will be uneducated. You will have a very small social circle, and have very little knowledge. Worst of all, the future husband you meet will be as simple-minded as you, and your family will suffer as a result of the simple-minded environment you are in, and the simple-minded people you meet. Am I right, Sis? You must really think carefully, okay?

Ah Zhong told me that he will support you if you decide to go to university or higher education. I believe with elder sis, aunt, mum and 2nd brother’s support, and if you do some part-time work while studying, than you can make it. Because of that, you will have a better life in the future. Since you have a good religion in Christianity, you can learn good virtues from the religion and make good friends too. Okay, I will stop here, take care.

I wrote a few letters to you before, have you received them? If you have, why have you not replied? Are you worried that I will feel pressure from you? If you are, don’t be, because I am at peace with myself now.

(Elder) Sister:

Over here, I have been worried about this person for a long time. He has a good heart, but grew up to be a very bad person. He is not filial to his parents, learn drug-taking from others, has a bad temper, is arrogant, miserly, not compassionate because of selfishness etc… But this man is trying to correct his past; he is serious about becoming a good man. I will take one example to describe how committed he is to be a good man- let’s say one man was walking in the jungle and he came across a fruit tree, he felt very greedy and took one fruit to eat. Now, because the fruit contained poison, he was poisoned. This man feels regretful eating this poisoned fruit; won’t this man fall into deep remorse? My dear sister, if you know this man has been poisoned and you know the way to cure him, won’t you cure him? I will give him a chance to turn over a new leaf. Do you think I am doing the right thing?

Before you answer me, let me tell you more about this person. He is thirty years old now, has no house, no car, no money, no freedom, no career, no wife, no son and daughter, no friend, no cloth, no knowledge, no correct mindset, has never been overseas, has no love from his mother, father,  and siblings; this man has nothing, but he has HOPE… I will tell you more about his hope in the next letter. I will also let you understand him more – what happened when he was growing up, what affected his life, why he ended up like this. I will tell you all that in the next letter.

I’m really sorry for writing unstructured. I used to always act without thinking, and this is the reason I am in prison today. Therefore, I want to reflect on my thoughts. I hope when you read my letters, you will think deeply about what I mean too. What I want to say is the same as what I have been telling you in the previous letters. If you don’t think about it, you will not understand what I am writing. :-)

Yours, Kong (12/9/2008)

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